Limited First Love Chapter 43
Translated by Q the Panda (ko-fi)
Chapter 43 ???? ? 3???~?
The girl's offhand comment made Guo Wei think for a long time.
She indeed spoke very sensibly.
The stranger who replied to him a few days ago mentioned that he had once dated an Alpha lover when he was an Omega. Originally, their relationship was harmonious in all aspects. When he first began to redifferentiate, the Alpha lover, after initial surprise, expressed willingness to accompany him.
However, in reality, as his Alpha traits gradually manifested, the Alpha lover's emotions visibly became low, and various conflicts arose in their relationship. The cracks gradually widened over time, escalating to the point where they argued almost every day.
The Alpha lover said he had changed, and he couldn't deny it.
As the inevitable breakup loomed, the Alpha lover confessed that it wasn't the gender transformation that drove them apart, but because his personality had changed drastically along with his gender, no longer resembling the person they deeply loved.
Guo Wei felt a pang in his heart when he saw this.
Unconsciously, he put himself in the Alpha lover's shoes. If he were also an Alpha, helplessly watching his beloved transform from a tender and lovely Omega to a person of the same gender emitting pheromones, he instinctively felt disgusted. Could he still guarantee his original intention and unchanged love?
The assumption remained just that — an assumption. He believed he could handle it, but that Alpha, at the outset, had also thought the same.
Thus, as a Beta, he truly was fortunate. Compatibility-wise, Ruan Yiyun being an Omega or an Alpha was not an ideal match, but they would always be suitable, at the very least.
It's no wonder, then, that people on the forum were clamoring to find a Beta as their partner.
The fact that he and Ruan Yiyun had found each other was something to cherish.
With that in mind, perhaps he should have discarded those minor psychological barriers earlier.
When he told Ruan Yiyun that he feared pain, it was an excuse deep down. Upon realizing the possibility, he had secretly searched for reassurance. Whether theoretically or from the shared experiences of many, it was evident that Betas were perfectly capable. They need not be coerced, and could even find unique pleasure in the process.
Ruan Yiyun was such a gentle soul. With patience and understanding, he wouldn't cause him any pain.
His fear was purely irrational.
But remembering that reply, he couldn't help but caution himself not to tread the same path. He wasn't an Alpha. He should be capable, just like the Beta that appeared at the end of the story, able to harmonize with his beloved Alpha.
Ruan Yiyun always told him, "You're really good." He enjoyed hearing it, and it fueled his determination to become an even better person in Ruan Yiyun's eyes.
Take it slow, he thought. There would be a transition period of several months at least until Ruan Yiyun fully became an Alpha, giving him enough time for psychological preparation.
In the days that followed, more and more people came to him seeking confirmation.
In reality, such cases were extremely rare, unheard of by the vast majority. Yet, it happened to occur to the most popular Omega in the school, becoming the hot topic of discussion for everyone.
"Your statement isn't precise," Wang Tong corrected him, "he's not the most popular Omega anymore. He's soon to become one of the most popular Alphas."
Guo Wei glanced at him and sighed.
"What's wrong? You seem troubled. Didn't you do well on the exam?" Wang Tong asked. "It can't be that bad. You've been studying late into the night every day these past few days, even canceling your dates."
Guo Wei shook his head. "I did alright on the exam, I should pass."
The problem lay in the cancellation of the dates.
He would hear Ruan Yiyun's name mentioned countless times every day, but he could only be able to share a brief lunch together. Just when today's exam was finally over and he could relieve some of the pressure, Ruan Yiyun had to go to the hospital for a follow-up, leaving them unable to meet.
"Hang in there, only four more exams to go, and then you'll feel relieved!" Wang Tong encouraged.
Guo Wei let out a long breath, nodded, but another layer of worry surged in his mind.
Soon after the exams, the holiday break would commence. By then, he and Ruan Yiyun would each return to their respective homes, perhaps not even in the same city, making it even less likely for them to meet.
Initially feeling embarrassed when Ruan Yiyun's parents invited him over, now he hoped they weren't just being polite. He looked forward to the possibility of genuinely visiting them and spending time with Ruan Yiyun.
Back in his dorm room, after resting for a while, he messaged Ruan Yiyun, inquiring about the results of his check-up.
Ruan Yiyun was probably busy as he didn't reply immediately.
Having read too many textbooks these days, his mind buzzed with exhaustion. Understanding the importance of balancing work and rest, Guo Wei decided to take half a day off to relax and ease his strained nerves.
After idling for a while, he suddenly remembered the Confession Wall submission he had seen some time ago.
Guo Wei seldom paid attention to gossip, remaining indifferent to campus news that others found fascinating. Whether it was the official school forum or student-built online platforms, he rarely cared. Ever since his last submission was met with increasing skepticism instead of understanding, he hadn't checked it again.
Now struck by curiosity, he speculated that the rapid spread of the news about Ruan Yiyun becoming an Alpha must have been aided by such platforms. He was somewhat intrigued and wanted to see how others perceived the matter.
He opened the Confession Wall and quickly found related submissions.
However, the content left Guo Wei dumbfounded in an instant.
One anonymous contributor, after emphasizing the need for anonymity, began to expound at length.
He claimed to be Ruan Yiyun's high school classmate, asserting knowledge of some insider information unknown to others. The whole story about transitioning from Omega to Alpha was nothing but a lie. Ruan Yiyun had always been an Alpha, a fact all their high school peers could attest to.
Initially, when Ruan Yiyun underwent differentiation later than others, everyone around assumed he was a Beta. With his beauty, admiration from suitors was inevitable regardless of his gender. Most of those pursuing him were Alphas, and he showed clear impatience towards them, even publicly berating Alphas who tried to flatter him.
"Since then, he has always claimed to be an Alpha, both privately and publicly, repeatedly emphasizing that he was only late in differentiation due to physical reasons and would soon become an Alpha. In the latter half of senior year, he self-studied at home for six months due to differentiation and didn't show up until graduation. Some classmates who were still in good terms with him contacted him, and he told them he had already differentiated into an Alpha."
Reading this, Guo Wei felt surprised and puzzled, briefly considering seeking confirmation from Ruan Yiyun himself.
But as he continued reading, he quickly fell into speechlessness.
The person went on to say, "Even with just a little bit of common sense, it's obvious that an Omega could never become an Alpha. It's completely illogical and against common sense. Yet, so many people believed it. It makes me wonder how these dimwits got into this school in the first place, as if they never studied biology."
After a barrage of criticism, he began to speculate that perhaps the reason Ruan Yiyun pretended to be an Omega in the past was to infiltrate Omega dorms for mischief. With his appearance, ordinary Omegas wouldn't even consider him, so he had to resort to such disgraceful means to gain an advantage. Now that he couldn't keep up the act anymore, he could only shamelessly claim to have become an Alpha.
In the midst of his rant, he mentioned Guo Wei again, describing "that Beta" as skinny with thin arms and legs, the type Alphas would be attracted to. Ruan Yiyun probably couldn't get an Omega, so he settled for second best. It was a pity that he looked so effeminate. He probably wasn't good in bed either. He was even smaller than Chen Zui, that was why his territory got poached by Chen Zui.
In the end, he concluded, "Didn't they say that Beta was messed up by Chen Zui and can't even walk straight anymore? Ruan Yiyun can still be friends with Chen Zui and not break up with that Beta. Perhaps he's inherently incapable. People like this are capable of all sorts of perverted things."
After finishing reading, Guo Wei felt strangely angry.
It was evident this guy had a twisted mind. His malice towards Ruan Yiyun practically overflowed from the screen.
His speculation was completely off the mark. Guo Wei was quite authoritative in this matter. How could Ruan Yiyun be incapable? He was so energetic it made Guo Wei's heart race. Those nights of endless energy were still fresh in his memory.
As for the redifferentiation, it was simply the ignorance of this person, who had the audacity to mock others for lacking common sense.
Guo Wei wanted to post a comment section to set the record straight. Upon opening the details page, he found that the vast majority of replies were also criticizing the contributor.
The first comment he scrolled to below brought Guo Wei a sense of satisfaction.
The person claimed to be an Omega, sarcastically ridiculing the contributor and emphasizing that someone as beautiful and charismatic as Ruan Yiyun would attract strong feelings even from people of the same gender. If he truly liked Omegas, he wouldn't need to resort to any means. Willing Omegas would line up.
Many Omegas echoed this sentiment below, with some speculating whether the contributor had been harshly rejected by Ruan Yiyun in high school, leading to their distorted mindset.
Others remarked that given the contributor's character, none of their statements could be trusted. Even if Ruan Yiyun had indeed said those things in the past, it was more likely just a means of warding off unwanted Alphas, a form of self-preservation.
Scrolling down a bit, Guo Wei came across a well-reasoned comment.
——Ruan Yiyun must have identified himself as Alpha probably because he psychologically leaned towards being an Alpha. Unfortunately, his body took a detour.
Guo Wei recalled past conversations with Ruan Yiyun and had a sudden realization.
With Ruan Yiyun's qualities, it was impossible for only Alphas to pursue him before his differentiation. Yet he always expressed dislike for Alphas, never once mentioning a dislike for Omegas.
Perhaps this was the subconscious at work.
Continuing to read, Guo Wei realized there was no need for him to specifically post the link to that discussion area. Some individuals mentioned having encountered similar cases, and it was the contributor's own shallow understanding that led them to believe such a situation couldn't exist, revealing their true ignorance.
Interestingly, someone managed to uncover the contributor's identity through clues and enthusiastically urged everyone to check out their profile page in the comments.
Guo Wei didn't hesitate to click on it.
This cunning individual was in the same class as the contributor and identified them through the chat bubbles, catchphrases, and a slightly uncommon misspelling used by the contributor, providing a large selfie posted by the contributor on their social media.
Guo Wei shuddered at the sight of the person's chubby face, squinty eyes, large nose, thick lips, and overall unattractive appearance.
Those who saw the photo came to a conclusion: this person was highly likely the Alpha publicly scolded by Ruan Yiyun during their high school years. Lacking self-awareness and holding grudges, they were truly repulsive.
Guo Wei returned to the Confession Wall post and found a new comment below.
——I ran into Ruan Yiyun and his partner at the cafeteria not long ago. They looked so loving, with eyes only for each other, so sweet it made me want to fall in love. I really don't know where all these messy rumors come from. Is it because some people can't stand to see others happy?
Guo Wei wholeheartedly agreed and enthusiastically liked the comment.
Just as he clicked, a notification popped up at the top of the screen, indicating that he had received a message from Ruan Yiyun.
——Check-up's done!
Guo Wei quickly opened the message and saw Ruan Yiyun had attached a flower emoji, indicating his obvious good mood.
Guo Wei replied with a smile.
——Everything went well?
Ruan Yiyun sent a voice message in response.
"Yep! The doctor said everything looks great. Based on my current condition, I'll complete my redifferentiation in less than half a month!"
Guo Wei listened in astonishment.
Meanwhile, Ruan Yiyun continued to shower flower emojis in the chat box.