Limited First Love Chapter 21
Translated by Q the Panda (ko-fi)
Chapter 21 Why Was It So—
Prior to his arrival, Guo Wei had earnestly worked on fortifying his mental resolve.
After his heartfelt confession, Ruan Yiyun said he still hoped he would come. Ruan Yiyun trusted him, so he couldn't let him down.
He wanted to be a considerate boyfriend. Ruan Yiyun needed someone to be with him, so he would be there for him. Other than that, he would do nothing.
But it seemed Ruan Yiyun also needed his kisses.
His kisses, his embraces, his warmth.
Who could refuse their beloved?
The bed was just a step away. Amidst his turbulent thoughts, Guo Wei was glad that he had taken a shower before coming over to avoid any awkwardness in using the bathroom.
But the thing that should not have happened the most still happened.
Guo Wei sat on the edge of the bed, feeling dazed. Ruan Yiyun lay behind him, covered by the blanket, exposing his smooth neck and shoulders, half-squinting at him.
"Aren't you sleepy?" he asked Guo Wei. "Come here, let's cuddle."
Guo Wei turned to him with a smile. "I'll sit a while longer. If you're tired, just go to sleep. I'll be here with you."
Ruan Yiyun shook his head. "I'll stay with you too."
As he spoke, he reached out from under the covers and took hold of Guo Wei's hand.
His hand was warm, and holding it felt comforting.
Guo Wei, fearing Ruan Yiyun might catch a chill and unwilling to let him stay up late, obediently crawled into the covers. Barely had he settled down when Ruan Yiyun immediately reached out to embrace him, wanting to press their bodies closely together.
Guo Wei couldn't help but dodge to the other side, quickly nearing the edge of the bed, teetering precariously.
"...What's wrong?" Ruan Yiyun complained. "Why are you staying so far away?"
Guo Wei hastily shook his head, nervously inching forward.
Ruan Yiyun looked at him, reaching out to touch his cheek. "Feeling unwell?"
Guo Wei quickly shook his head in denial. "How could I? I... I'm..."
"I feel great too," Ruan Yiyun said. "Don't overthink it."
Guo Wei grinned and squeezed out a smile at him.
He did have some self-inflicted troubles, but it wasn't just disappointment in his own weak willpower. It was obvious that Ruan Yiyun accepted everything well, and was even very proactive at one point, which brought him an incredibly wonderful feeling. With mutual consent, he didn't feel so uptight.
What bothered him was something else entirely.
It wasn't explicitly stated in the textbooks, but the vast majority of people assumed it to be common knowledge.
Normally, Betas were definitely supposed to be bigger than Omegas.
...What was going on here???
Despite Ruan Yiyun's warm body, Guo Wei lay beside him, his heart strangely feeling cold.
He found himself deeply questioning himself.
Though he had never been overly complacent about this aspect in the past, he had always assumed he was at least normal.
"What are you thinking?" Ruan Yiyun asked.
His voice was soft, with a noticeable hint of coquettishness, stirring something deep inside.
Guo Wei turned his head to look at him, a strong but unspoken question lingering in his mind: Why are you so huge?!
He even briefly felt ashamed and wanted to hide himself away.
He didn't sleep soundly that night.
In the middle of the night, Guo Wei was awakened by Ruan Yiyun tossing and turning beside him.
"What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable?" he asked.
Ruan Yiyun shook his head, his voice slightly hoarse with fatigue as he reassured him, "It's nothing, go to sleep."
Though Guo Wei was still concerned, he was too exhausted and soon fell back into a deep slumber.
After that, Ruan Yiyun's movements became much quieter.
At dawn, Guo Wei woke up right on time before the alarm went off, finding Ruan Yiyun peacefully sleeping by his side.
After a few moments of dazed stupor, Guo Wei was overwhelmed by a surge of happiness flooding his chest.
Leaning over, he planted a kiss on Ruan Yiyun's forehead with a smile. Ruan Yiyun slept soundly, undisturbed by the gesture.
Guo Wei carefully adjusted his position, lying on his side, and gazed at Ruan Yiyun's sleeping face.
He had been lost in thought and worry the previous night, but now, he was filled with intense joy and satisfaction for everything that had occurred between them.
It was really nice, he thought, really nice.
If only, he wished, he could keep watching like this until Ruan Yiyun woke up. They could exchange a morning kiss and then stand together in front of the mirror to freshen up.
Unfortunately, Guo Wei had morning classes.
Ruan Yiyun was sleeping deeply. Guo Wei got out of bed, got dressed, and went to the bathroom to brush his teeth and wash his face, all without stirring him.
Before leaving, Guo Wei left a note for Ruan Yiyun, purposely slipping it into his hand, hoping he would see it as soon as he woke up.
——I'm off to class, text me when you wake up. Sweet dreams!
In the corner of the note, he drew two silly stick figures, pouting and standing together. The one on the right was himself, while the one with slightly longer hair on the left was Ruan Yiyun.
He added several sparkles around Ruan Yiyun, indicating extreme beauty, brightness, and radiance.
As he left through the window, an interesting thought popped into his mind.
Ruan Yiyun was like his long-haired princess, living in a tower, ready to let down his hair to meet him secretly.
He had been just an ordinary passerby, but because of the princess' love, he had luckily become a little prince.
Because he had to rush back to his own dormitory to get his textbooks and materials, he was five minutes late. Amidst the gazes of everyone, he called out his name, announcing his attendance, and then walked in. As he entered, the classroom was filled with whispers.
After sitting down next to Wang Tong, as expected, he was greeted with anticipated mockery.
"Where did this master go to have fun last night?" Wang Tong teased.
Blushing, Guo Wei chuckled at him, then quickly pulled out his textbooks and buried himself in them.
"Tsk tsk," Wang Tong frowned, leaning in, asking with a mischievous tone, "How was it?"
"Huh?" Guo Wei pretended to be clueless. "What do you mean? What are you talking about?"
"You have no talent for acting," Wang Tong scoffed. "Weren't you with Ruan Yiyun last night? Don't tell me you two spent the night just chatting under the covers."
Guo Wei, still blushing, avoided looking at him. "Something like that."
Despite some intimacy, they had only touched each other and hadn't engaged in what Wang Tong implied.
Throughout the entire process, Ruan Yiyun had brought him much joy and happiness. Yet, those were parts he was unwilling to share, considering them unnecessary to flaunt to others.
"For real? Keeping your hands to yourself, are you like Liu Xiahui, huh?" Wang Tong looked skeptical. "Something's off, your face is as red as a monkey's butt, if nothing happened, why are you so shy?"
"Why ask such questions?" Guo Wei nudged him with his elbow. "You're such a pervert."
Wang Tong cleared his throat and lowered his voice even further. "I heard Omegas are special in that... um, department, is it true?"
"Which department?" Guo Wei asked curiously.
Wang Tong seemed a bit embarrassed now. "You know, it's not the same as Beta. Just a touch during that time and it will immediately set off like a rushing stream."
Guo Wei blinked a few times.
Though he didn't want to discuss it, his brain subconsciously began to recall.
It didn't, did it?
In fact, throughout the entire process, that aspect hadn't even crossed his mind. Of course, he hadn't come into contact with that specific area.
Something felt off.
Before Guo Wei could figure it out, his phone buzzed in his pocket. He quickly took it out, and sure enough, it was a message from Ruan Yiyun.
——Good morning! Have you been paying attention in class?
While replying to the message, Guo Wei nudged Wang Tong with his elbow and whispered, "Stop making wild guesses!"
He quickly composed his response.
——Yes, of course!
Ruan Yiyun responded promptly as well.
——Then, have you missed me?
He typed with a smile.
——Of course, I have!
Wang Tong's "tsk tsk tsk" sound came from beside them again.
Guo Wei ignored him.
At noon, the two of them sat together again to eat.
Whether it was an illusion or not, Guo Wei couldn't shake the feeling that a subtle change had permeated the atmosphere between them.
It was difficult to accurately describe in words, but Guo Wei felt that it was a sweet and positive change.
"Did you wake up again last night?" he asked Ruan Yiyun.
"Hmm," Ruan Yiyun nodded, "but seeing you right beside me, I immediately felt at ease and fell asleep right away."
Guo Wei felt pleased that he had indeed been of use and nodded. "That's good!"
"What about you, did you sleep well?" Ruan Yiyun asked.
"Yeah, I slept well," Guo Wei said, "Um... if you need anything in the future, I can also..."
He felt awkward saying it, afraid that Ruan Yiyun might misunderstand and think he was too eager to repeat the wonderful experience they had yesterday.
However, he couldn't deny that amid his concern for Ruan Yiyun, such thoughts had crossed his mind.
After such a marvelous experience, who wouldn't want to relive it?
"Okay," Ruan Yiyun smiled at him, "if I can't sleep well in the future, I'll definitely call you."
That meant he didn't need it for the time being today.
Guo Wei felt a bit disappointed but said, "Okay, that's agreed then."
"Hmm," Ruan Yiyun said, "you're really good."
After that, Ruan Yiyun never brought up the matter again.
They met as usual every day, often eating together, and if they had time, they would go for walks in the evening. Ruan Yiyun often appeared unwell, but when Guo Wei asked, he refused to admit it.
Guo Wei worried that Ruan Yiyun still couldn't sleep well, so he suggested accompanying him, but was rejected.
"It's risky to do this often. If we're caught, it won't be good," Ruan Yiyun said. "There's still some danger."
He made a valid point.
Guo Wei had to accept it.
If his long-haired princess no longer needed him, then he wasn't a little prince anymore.
Guo Wei felt sad for a few days until a realization struck him like a bolt while standing in the toilet.
Why didn't Ruan Yiyun want him to come anymore after that?
While Guo Wei was secretly pondering, "Why are you so huge?", was Ruan Yiyun also silently criticizing, "Why are you so small?"
Guo Wei broke into a sweat.
